Stuck In A Rut

It seems I know this place to well
my personal living hell
standing at the edge of this cliff
made this climb too many times
doing what's worst for me and mine
all while coming off cold and stiff
I'm stuck in a rut
these wrists should be cut
I'm all out, fuck fuck fuck!
where did I go
with what I know?
I've seen this place before
a view from the floor