Year Of The Locust

i never thought this change;
that things would be this way.
but lying here makes everything seem different,
and something tells me now...
another year: i'm feeling helpless,
where has everybody gone?
won't need the pain you gave me:
i've given up.
won't change the way i feel this time,
my essence lays on you.

give me something i can ruin again the way i ruin you.