Stick Up For Yourself

I don't know what she means to me yet
But I know it's gotta be something
'Cause I lifted my head and took a deep breath
And that's good enough for now
I've picked myself up and let myself down
For what seems like more than a decade
I'm stuck in my past avoiding my future
At present wasting days

I think about the times I didn't have to think at all
And what it feels like to be loved honestly

My ex-girlfriend is stuck in my head
And she's been there for a long time
And it doesn't make sense
'Cause when we were together, we both felt so alone
I know it sounds dumb
But I've been worried about my lack of conviction
'Cause the song in my heart
Is fading into the noises in the street

I think about the nights I couldn't think about
Anyone else and how I felt so uninspired

It's been some time since I have tried
To find that silver living
I've been a wreck ever since she let me open-handed
Waiting, I healed inside
Spent a month in hiding
In hopes it would subside
Came up for air when the coast was clear
And started over as I started writing

I hope this means something to you
I hope this means something to you
Honestly

I'm here for the night
I don't trust myself but I'm good for the ride
Her name is everything I've felt for a while
Who knows what I may promise you when I make you mine