Too Many Times

There's so many times that I
That I have lost my mind
Whoever wonders that I
Can't ask
But I can't lie
I've tried saving my face, but
Not sure that's what I wanted
No, I
Oh, I
I thought I did before

This life ain't what you asked
As I thought out loud
I travelled far for this
Do you wonder why I still drown?
And I hold my breath
When I take a chance
You're too used to this now
When there's no air left
Well, who's pulling me up? Mm

I could tell that I'm missed
I'm surely damned
But that won't ever stop me
I have always had this crown
But they can only taste it now
I could tell in the midst
I'm surely down
But that won't ever stop me
I have always had this crown
But they can only taste it now

What you say
This ain't right
This went left
Coming back home
I ain't got time for this
Who you love
Who you blame
Who asked for this
When did you make up your mind that I had time for this?

Been too long, two months
But now I called you up
Yeah, you were there
But you knew nothing about me
How'd you learn if you don't hear the words I said?
Maybe you could feel it through my pain instead

I could tell that I'm missed
I'm surely damned
But that won't ever stop me
I have always had this crown
But they can only taste it now
I could tell in the midst
I'm surely down
But that won't ever stop me
I have always had this crown
But they can only taste it now