Lose In Wanting

in one flash, i am returned again
it's just something you can't see
a single thing i fear the most within
gathered slowly up inside me
ready to take me

i can feel it burning up inside my head
will i lose in wanting everything i said
who will, there, be waiting when this
silence follows
leads me to it's end

every day, my army gains a win
brings out prides i can't defend
(brings out prides i can't defend)
and in your place, no new instructions sent
got no plans for where i'm going
no memory where i've been