Suicide Hotline

It aint no point to me waking up
everbodys time I'm taking up
I got nobody
it aint a shoulder near
I can't stay here and its colder there
I don't wanna look back cause its gonna hurt
I slice my wrist and its gonna squirt
For me everybody holds a hate
I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake
its no roads to take i'm in a circle drive
bustin at myself and I'm tryna survive
I'll dissapoint you
and I will let you down
and I aint got me homeboys comin around
you don't understand so don't say you do
I swear I'll put a motherfuckin slug in you
I'm the only one
the lonely one
at home alone loadin a gun thinkin why not

I got court comin up I stole a truck
I got a bitch pregnant and I'm broke as fuck
I wanna get high but I got piss test
I'm always first name on top of shit list
get this
the witch has made my chest its permanent nightly visiting nest
it aint no clothes that I look good in
I'm the motherfuckin big red train that couldn't
I got no family I stole they shit
restraining orders and I still wont quit
I hit rock bottom and then I feel in a hole
and the I fell through the floor of that hole some more
I been missin for year nobodys lookin
I got beat down and my shit tooken
I look ahead and I see is the same
or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain

I dream about cuttin heads off with a shovel
the dreams are gettin serious I think I'm in trouble
I don't hold memory for than an hour
I'm tired as fuck and I'm drained of power
I aint half way there and I'm all out of time
I'm like a crushed light bulb all out of shine
I been around the world but no place is home
I wanna see the otherside when I face the chrome
I'm butt naked I been jackin off gettin drunk
its my last hours alive who gives a fuck
it don't matter
I'm doin this shit in the garage
tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage
I this bitch I love, I hope she finds
stll up in the chair with my thoughts behind me
I'm about to do it can you hold for a second