Someplace Disposed

I have to stay away
The dreams that I have hurt
They hurt within my soul
I feel like I'm someplace disposed

What is this righteous moment
That I feel sometimes
Well I can see the light
But I find myself in the dark

I fall asleep
My fears consume me
My soul gets cold
Because I'm someplace disposed

My heart beats too fast
I'm not even moving
I smoke to halt the time
But it's only temporary

What is this good I feel?
It comes around sometimes
I feel like the world has blown up
But it's only in my soul

Well can't you look at me
I'm someplace disposed
Well only in my dreams
My fears consume me