The Self-aware Octopus

I wake up without you.
I know all about you.
I'll show up with no one.
I have no opinion.
You're just looking for some peace of mind.
I'm just trying to go back in time.
Take another card and roll once more.
Do you remember who we were before?
Another victory to savor. (You're on my mind.)
I guess we'll talk about it later. (Won't you get off?)
Swallow anything that I can find. I still think about you all the time.
Every time that I am shown the door, I laugh a little more.
I'm growing out of growing out. I'm growing into growing up.
Don't have an exit plan, an out, or anywhere to go but up.
I'm getting comfortable with doubting it'll ever be enough.
I've finally got you figured out.
And that's enough.