The Leftout Breakup Breakdown

this close ontop of my awareness
that you're no longer loving me
and we're no longer as we've been

it seems so distant to declare this:
i think i've gotten over you
in one way i'm ashamed, but then i

must say i prefer to let you go,
erase you out of my conciousness,
to lie here all alone and cry
the choice is rather given, thinking clear