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What to do with a soulless man
alarm the seekers of such beings to send forth the legion
take the vessel so empty and hollow
in death we part our ways, soar high to the clouds
let go of the grip and leave me in the desolate lands of home

like a weathered tree standing the test of time
I have felt the full force of this conviction
to be shackled in guilt watching my love ones wither
one by one each process the same
the process the same but the burden on my heart grows
this is the weight of the world
carrying and forgetting the reason why I do so
the purpose of life has left my sanity and in its wake
left the being before you

pleading forgiveness to my loved ones forgotten
kept alive through me, a glimpse of dreams I cherish
the silent whisper I hear in the darkest of nights
the guiding voice of a salvation not rightfully mine
and something I don't rightfully deserve
for acceptance is my bane
the hearts I have torn, the vows I left broken
callas and selfish this is what I become
even in loathsome I could never utter them words I am sorry

so I plead don't shower me with affection
for I am not worthy of such a love
you stood by my side through the bleakest of days
I repay such a penance with lies and hardship
and for the first time in my life I can say as a man
erase my existence, blot out the memories we have shared
mistakes, regrets is all they contain
in the ashes let them birth your wings
soar and never look back