Holy Shit

holy shit
what a relief

i pulled myself apart - couldn't breathe - tore my hair - bit my skin
i thought of all the dark - all the ash - all the blood - all the grief
i told myself look up - told myself look up and believe
and now this peace - like a blanket - enveloping me.

and holy shit
what a relief
the worst has come
and turned to leave
and holy shit
what a relief!
all that weight falling from me
and all that breath finally free