I'm Sorry

April 13, 2004
You must have been a nervous wreck.
I dream about his dying day.
And I scream at night.
When you called me on the phone well I was on a plane so far away.
But you know that I would try.
To get back to what I could be.
And I know.
(And I look but no one's thinking)
And I think of what I could say.
But I'm wrong.
(And I stop but we go)
And I'm sorry.
For leaving you at the airport all alone.

And I think about all your words.
I swear I want that weekend back.
You forced my feet onto that plane.
When I should have been at home.
And mom, I missed that call.
I never thought that things would end like this.
And I didn't even try.
So I found out what I could be.
And I know.
(And I look but no one's thinking)
And think of what I could say.
But I'm wrong.
(And I stop but we go)

And I'm sorry.
For leaving you at the airport all alone.
Please forgive me.
Because I was not there to watch him go.

And I'm sorry.
For leaving you at the airport all alone.
Mom, please forgive me.
Because I was not there to watch him go.