Better Than This

anger builds
and this hardness holds
and it comes out in profanities unbecoming of a girl
what used to heal
and used to feel
like a remedy has eluded me
so i face it all alone

i wanted to be so much older
but i turned out colder than an iceberg in the sea
i used to burn like a fire
and it got me nowhere
but anything is better than this

turn this off
can you shut this thing off
oh i left my mind running
and i got myself lost

turning back
no there's no turning back
all the old ways are a see-through
as a big pane of glass

i wanted to be so much older
but i've turned out colder than an iceberg in the arctic sea
i used to burn like a fire
and it got me nowhere
nowhere nowhere nowhere
i'm holding out for a new day
and i'm waiting for my local warming
there's not much hope left
but there's something deep inside me
that wants to believe like i did when i was four

i was four once