White Like Heaven

was it white like heaven or dark like space?
was it bright like god or ace black spades?


i was sitting
i was sitting at the table and suddenly i could see it
and it was just like the movie and i couldn't move
cuz i could see the cracks in everything
in every little thing


and it was like the time that we were in your car
i was sick
i was on drugs
you were smoking pot
and we were driving


we were driving
we were driving
and suddenly i could see it
i could see it
i could feel it and...
i saw the world break open
i could see all of it


i could see for miles and miles in every direction
every direction
looking up
looking out
and i saw thirty seconds turn into 10,000 years
and it was horrible


i saw the man outside walking his dog mowing his lawn
and the kids out in the yard
and i knew right then that she was gonna have another baby
let it grow up in front of the tv
eat macaroni and cheese


and the dog will bark in the yard on a chain
and the kid will huff gasoline and rape a girl while she's passed out on the sofa years and years and years later

and i know that i could never stop it even if i tried

even if i wanted to
even if i wanted to

and i really, really, really wanted to.

and is it white like heaven or dark like space
is it bright like god or ace black spades