Don't Know How To Be

It's all to clear now
Well I've been running away
Almost on the hour of mostly everyday
Now I see colors
That I've never seen
And the reddest of then all, so vibrant out of me
Without you
I don't know how to be
See this zero
The lowest of the low
I let you take me down 'till lower I could not go
Now I see scars
I willingly made
I facilitated one need
Now here I lay
Tell me what was I
What was I thinking
Tell me what was I
What was I thinking
Tell me what was I
What the hell was I thinking