In A Body That Is Cursed

I used to tell you that I love you
As soon as you would fall asleep
But I don't think you ever saw, dear
The saddest thoughts that that would bring

I am a woman who cannot survive on fiction
Though I fight I swallow most my pain
I've always been easily defeated
By my weak heart and swore to never do again

I do admit I am easily discouraged
But I am trapped in a body that is cursed
I carry all the waste people have left behind here
Just trying hard to not grow older from the pain

From pain
As I always do again

I used to tell you that I love you
As soon as you would fall asleep
I know you couldn't hear me whisper
But I would still think you were just ignoring me

I am a woman starved of caring
And I've always had to stand up for myself
You are myself support and only friend
And in my life, no one's ever been this way

I do admit I'm more sensitive than others
But my reasons have always haunted me
I carry all the waste people have left behind here
Just trying hard to not grow older from the pain

From pain
As I always do again