I'm Not Going Back

I was angry
I don't know at what
Disappointment filling up my cup and I could
Never trust in anything at all

I stayed in a place with many walls
When I fell down no one broke my fall but I was
Happy to feel anything at all

I'm not going back
I'm not going, ever going back

Paranoia snuck into my mind
The fear of failure keeping both hands tied
I felt like I could not do anything at all

I stood up frightened in my bed
My heart tried to explode my head
I felt the cold sweat on my face
I crossed my fingers just in case

Had I known then
What I know right now
Despite my efforts
Nothing would be any different

Cause I can not change anything at all