What's The Use

Where's my head
caught up in selling the drama
where am I
coloring the chameleon to fit in
lost my integrity to have a
social status
good cop bad cop
be all things to all people
a talker
a listener
not a conformist
I love you, I hate you
trying to save you
trying to hurt you
who am I
losing sight on why I live
if I live, I live for Him
if I die, I die for Him
take up your cross
and follow him, not the sheep
time to focus on developing
not damaging
don't want to be another Judas
what have I done