Not Exist

oh no, i'm thrust into my depths again I had put off well behind me my half-assed smile, I cracked it on my own ran into holes I think I know bumped into her, I thought she knew but she kept god on her side "you need" love said I could be beautiful a good lie to tell at home I looked myself and unless I cannot read it's there in black, my future's written on me I have no pride my fingers numb from placing them inside you I'll have my way this is my fun by taking pills to spite you (despite you) so then she asks how can I want that smell I guess it's comforting for me to swallow my affection what if, like you, I don't know where I'm from I feel closest to things that are not human I have no pride my fingers numb from placing them inside you I'll have my way this is my fun by taking pills to spite you (despite you) I'd pull nails though to save your mind from mine why all this questioning? just let me go