Downtime

Picking up from setbacks, once again returning
A disappointing saga from an optimistic journey
Resuming out of hibernate, the power got restored
Building up the bravery to finally hit record
Hesitant, reluctant, unsure if I can cut it
Hit a wall and then I stalled thus becoming unproductive
Plus I wasn't having luck with, really much of anything
Empty lacking meaning, now reflection getting menacing
Can't express these issues, what if someone overhears
Overcoming challenges to understand them clear
Afraid of facing failure, any move could bring it near
But this lack of forward motion just solidifies the fear
System state corrupted but can't revert the snapshot
A silent silhouette against a solitary backdrop
Abandoned what I have and just focused on the have-not
Lock myself away but I'd probably pick the padlock

Finally unplugged from the storm that I had weathered
Crumbled under pressure, put the statement on the record
Lacking any effort, got the madness but no method
Sad and introspective, feeling ever disconnected
Now I'm writing past the margin, hardened, charging from the sidelines
Just invert the five nines, seemed a couple lifetimes
Labelled AFK inactivity displayed
Returning to the stage after having been away
Sick and tired of these single wires, feeling uninspired
The music's undesired but too young to just retire
And I’d never walk away from opportunity for higher
Elevating my community of peers that I admire
Decoded and I’m cold, an alone defeated rhymer
Back myself into this corner, need it warmer, seeking fire
Eroding at my soul to decrypt this weakened cipher
Coming up from downtime but feeling so expired

Despite the homecoming, I don't think it's run its course
This is weakness in a story, not a path to be endorsed
Even present day with regrets and this remorse
The fear of failure holding, still imposing quite a force
Afraid that I would ruin any legacy in music
Any other reasons said were really just excuses
Surrounded now in doubt getting blasted with confusion
Success and being fearless seeming mutually exclusive
The only path is forward, rarely looking back instead
Learning from the past, but still focusing ahead
Distant and withdrawn, felt like hanging by a thread
But I just couldn't let it go, though, no matter what was said
Tired of being out of it, clearing out these outages
Regular expressions 'cause I’m finished with the counterfeits
Excited for the rise so don't tell me bring it down a bit
Finished with my downtime, consider this a power trip