Drained Out

A disappearing smile
Across a face where love once grew
I left it all behind
For the chance at something new
I’ve seen what happens when all the love drains out
I’ve seen what’s left of a love stained in doubt

I thought I couldn’t leave everything behind
But I’ve come so far
And it’s never rung more true
That “you can’t miss what you forget”

I could always look back
And say that I had better times, easier times
And everything was drenched in so much hope
But that lie only stretches out so far
The reality will only stretch so far

All those forced smiles
And the torrid long goodbyes
It was all that we had
And was all just dying out

I thought I couldn’t leave everything behind
But I’ve come so far
I thought this would get harder
But it’s getting easier with every step I take

I was dragging my heels
Until my feet fell off
Just to stand in front of you
Bite my fingernails down to the knuckle
And force that smile
You’d seen too many times before

You held my hand, but it wasn’t the same
I woke up next to you, but it wasn’t the same
You held my hand, but it wasn’t the same

We kissed, but it wasn’t the same