Each, Every One

It's never been colder from here to Carolina.
What warms is not the weather
in this Miami swelter.
I've held "I love yous" on the tip of my tongue.
I swallowed and choked down each, every one.
I've loved you like a stranger,
I've missed you like a head cold,
just to act how I've been scripted,
just to say what I've been told.
I've held "I love yous" on the tip of my tongue.
I swallowed and choked down each, every one.
All at once you disappear
and sleep inside of all my fears.
I wore the lies from all your notes
that tighten hard around my throat.
when anything but words apply
you're leaving me without the
decency of goodbye.
These casual lies lying casually beside her,
I'm freezing for your touch while she rubs a blister.
She fits like a sweater of wool on my skin.
She dances between where I end and you begin.
I've held "I love yous" on the tip of my tongue.
I swallowed and choked down each, every one.