I Love My Problems

Is this my existence now?
I've become jaded, I hesitated...every time I should have jumped right in
Its not too late, we'll begin today

I love my problems, so please don't solve them
They provide excuses, for being useless

I had a dream that everyone I knew was in my room,
Staring at pictures of my past life
The one I spent dying to get out of my own head
I never succeeded.

I know not what I want to be,
but I'm taking notes on my enemies today and every day.
I love my problems, so please don't solve them
They provide excuses, for being useless

I love my life but still I find a way,
To fuck this up just when its gets so good
We run around until there is nothing left,
Just empty shells of our fleeting youth and anyway,
I'm not the same

I know not what I want to be,
but I'm taking notes on my enemies today and every day.
I love my problems, so please don't solve them
They provide excuses, for being useless

If only you could hear me, when I am thinking clearly
It's so loud, but I'm stuck and I'm repeating my mistakes
But at least I didn't break down again today like that day, it was so loud
I'm stuck and I'm repeating my mistakes