Be Silent and Drink Your Wine

took another walk tonight past the girl's house that I like
but the blinds are always drawn and I don't care enough to knock
goddamn it, I don't always want to live like this
the sun touched by rain like fish
but you'll have to search through ashes just to see if I remember you
because all I remember is back when we were friends
and the doorbell sang a sweet song
and now, I sit here and drink my wine
like talking to it feels so different without you
took color from the leaves
tore the last stitch from my sleeve
Akaky Akakievich, would you have a coat to spare
for a boy without a cigarette
who wonders but does not regret
that he is designated early death
and yet you hold your breath
like, suddenly, you'll have something to say
but you know that things are too fucked up
just be silent and drink your wine, like a good girl should
I know you remember how this is done
I was only trying to purify the idea that people just don't last