Surrender My Heart

So I've been trying hard to open up
When I lost someone, it hit me rough
I paid to toughen up in therapy
She said to me “Soften up"

I'm sorry if I push your good away
Especially when I'm needing you to stay
I know that you hate that I still test your love
I'm trying not to fuck this up

But the benefit of all the broken hearts that I broke before they could break me
Is a little bit of life regrets
I won’t be that nice to you when you’re with me
And I wanna be brave enough to show you my not so perfect family
And I wanna be brave enough for everything

Surrender my heart (I’m out here in the open)
I wanna get closer (I believe in you every night)
Surrender my heart
I wanna be open
I wanna be honest with you

I used to soldier through my hardest days
I used to switch it off, ignore the pain
I craved to feel it all entirely in your arms, baby

But the benefit of all the broken hearts that I broke before they could break me
Is a little bit of life regrets
I won’t be that nice to you when you’re with me
And I wanna be brave enough to show you my not so perfect family
And I wanna be brave enough for everything

Surrender my heart (I’m out here in the open)
I wanna get closer (I believe in you every night)
Surrender my heart
I wanna be open
I wanna be honest with you

I believe in you every night
Every night
Every night
I believe in you every night
I believe in you every night
Every night
Every night

Surrender my heart (I’m out here in the open)
I wanna to get closer (I believe in you every night)
Surrender my heart
I wanna be open
I wanna be honest with you