Lover I Don't Have To Love

I picked you out of a crowd and talked to you
Said I liked your shoes
You said thanks, can I follow you?
So it's up the stairs and out of view, no prying eyes
I poured some wine
I asked your name, you asked the time
It's two o'clock
The club is closed, we're up the block
Your hands are on me
I'm pressing hard against your jeans
Your tongue in my mouth
Trying to keep the words from coming out
You didn't care to know
Who else may have been you before

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck
Where is the kid with the chemicals?
I thought he said he'd meet me here but I'm not sure
I've got the money if you've got the time
He said it feels good, I said I'd give it a try

Then my mind went dark
We both forgot where your car was parked
Let's just take the train
I'll meet up with the band in the morning

Bad actors with bad habits
Some sad singers, they just play tragic
And the phone's ringing and the van's leaving
Let's just keep touching
Let's just keep, keep singing

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where is the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind

But you write such pretty words
But life's no storybook
Love's an excuse to get hurt and to hurt
Do you like to hurt? I do, I do!
Then hurt me! Then hurt me!