Hugging My Grudge

I have weapons and battle plans
But in my heart I know I can't ever protect you
From things I don't understand

And when I hold you in my arms
It scares me just to think
That something so beautiful
Could come apart in my hands

I've always been chasing rainbows
Staring out of classroom windows
I dont think I'll ever be
Happy unless I'm unhappy
And hugging my grudge
Oh

I was too dumb to settle down
So i packed up and I left town
On the sunshine bus
Wondering where it all went wrong

On a flimsy winged aeroplane
I followed my heart everywhere
Until I ended up back
Where I started from

Ive always been quietly dreaming
I dont know when I've been beaten
I dont think I'll ever be
Happy unless I'm unhappy
And hugging my grudge
Oh

I've always been chasing rainbows
Staring out of classroom windows
I dont think I'll ever be
Happy unless I'm unhappy
And hugging my grudge
Oh

I've always been quietly dreaming
I dont know when I've been beaten
I dont think I'll ever be
Happy unless I'm unhappy
And hugging my grudge
Oh