A Freak Accident

what I remember
it's too cold in the water
too hot indoors
beyond the point of remorse

what I remember
there's a bottle and it's broken
by words finally spoken
no missing links howled in the open

but I'm sure I heard you laugh
only stitches away from the past
I avoided today

a strange quality greets me here
a promise no one would notice
to come back again
if I somehow got away

a sad discovery
I can't locate the centre
of how much you meant to me
of what I once felt as alive in me

but I'm sure I heard you laugh
only stitches away from the past
I avoided today

adrenaline and awe
sharpened everything I saw