As If Forever Really Exists

what is this before me
a goal so selfish
so human

do you crush your soul
can you stick it back together

forever, forever
a lie i tell myself so

i dont scream
till im crazy
bleeding
everywhere

to gouge out my eyes
and cut out my tongue

to live a lie
ignorance is bliss
or so im told
by the falsely
intelligent, creative, and beautiful

forever, forever
you haunt me
like a million
bones crushing

cliches
i want to hunt you
strike at you

where the blood flows everywhere
and i can
sleep at night
where a smile
isnt a knife
and a frown
isnt
an
embrace