So Suddenly

to think of all the time that passed
all the years that i've buried
youth's grace shattered so suddenly
that i was left naked and torn
and i dreamt of destroying
every beautiful fleeting thing
that would warm my heart until i believed in love
only to be reminded there's none here
so fuck the years

and to spite the sky i will rise again
my spirit scarred yet unbroken
so suddenly aware of the world's ashes
that i breathed too deep and choked on them
but you showed me light where i saw none
and my pain died off and was reborn as love
and now i have no god just undying faith
in the beauty of life despite our fate
so here's to the years