Exploding

I am wild, I am open, rode a wide awake 180 by the ocean
I was fuming by the exit, now I got all this space so I can finally digest it

and yes you were a friend to me but only til I let you see I couldn’t breathe, you disagreed

I hope I am always exploding, I hope I am always exploding
I see the stars, they’re supernoving
I hope that I’m always exploding

got a hard light on pretending
when I hurt somebody just by holding my breath in
thank god I erupted, instructions on people pleasing rained down like a bar fight on the ceiling

and yes I did my best to hide that scary, silly mess
till I could barely find my silhouette

I hope I am always exploding, I hope I am always exploding
I see the stars, they’re supernoving
I hope that I’m always exploding
I hope that I’m always exploding
I hope that I’m always exploding
if the alternative is heavy holding
I hope that I’m always exploding….

I am wild, I am hoping I am wide awake
now I’ve been shaken open