Algophobia Left

Feeling numb because of empty feelings
And devastated from absurd and superficial events
You cannot deny yourself pleasure
Of self-poisoning with fear of pain
That you so sweet anticipate
And will come to hate when feel

Only pain made me understand
The nature of such usual things
And I don't want to understand
I deceive myself
Giving poisoned answers
To your venomous questions
Do not search for my words any more

Algophobia
Smoldering desire is leaving burns
All over your body and partly in soul
Nothing but fear that you have shown
Your ulcers again to a treacherous man
You console me in either
And destroy in another
You are afraid, you see
Overcoming pain barrier and moral principles
You break into yourself deeper and deeper
But will you get out?