All I Can Do Is Hate You

I want you to love me
‘til all I can do is hate you
To kiss me til you bruise me
To touch me til it scars

And I want you to hold me
Til my mind has eroded
Til all my bones are broken
Til everything goes dark

To suck my blood and fill me up
With memories of you

I want you to fuck me
Til I can’t say your name
For fear that it will crush me underneath it’s tiring weight

I want you to wear me out
Just like you wear my clothes
To sew your smell into my sheets
To wreck the scent of roses

And I want to be there
Until I hate my birthday
‘Cause I can’t stand one more day
Growing old without you
To hold me til you drop me
Just like a screaming baby
To love til we get lazy
And lay down on the floor

Til I forget the best bits
And only see the rest

As long as you're able
Until I get stale
Before I admit
That it’s better to quit
Before I admit
That it’s just not working

I want you to love me
Til everything is hurting
To alcohol stops working
Til everything is numb

I want you to love me
Til nothing else seems worth it
Til living is a burden
Underneath your thumb

To kiss my head
Sweet angel of death
And tuck me into bed