Into The Abyss / The Pleasure Of Suffering

Cultivating the pleasure,
That in the defeated conscience lives as suffering,
Thinking of dying that soon it will be,
I don't live for that I want,
I live for that has played me,
But I must find the best exit,
For that Agony...
The death...
Kill yourself right now...
I condemn myself in pain
With an agony cry
For a lost war that has been damned...