We Never Shook on It

Why can't you just be here now? You had better plans, I guess. To blaze your little path of least resistance. I hope you've found what you were searching for. I hope it was worth it. I have become a martyr, preaching to the recently deceased. I choose to exist in fear because I believe its greater to live a nightmare than not at all. Free will is what makes this real. Life is not just a script. I'd rather feel the sand get kicked into my face. I'd rather have my heart broken into a thousand shards. Just to experience. Just to emote. Is this the only way? Is this all? You're not fixing anything. I can never prove if there really is such a place as hell. But I know where ever you are now isn't any more opportune than here. Can't you see that when you are gone there is no turning back? There are no second chances when you're underground. You are only absconding the few beings here that love you. Death is just punishment to those who live. Because we're the ones who have to mourn you. We're all brought here for a reason. I think thats the deal. But we never shook on it. So you took the easy way out