Save Me

I keep tellin' you to save me
I’m not sure if you can
For the thoughts in my head, if you blame me
Then you can go talk to them then, ah

One foot forward but I keep one foot to the back
So I don’t start fallin', keep goin' 'til I’m all in
Know I gotta stop stallin' like it’s 1922, lock the doors and
And I keep lettin' you knock and you don’t stop callin'
Keep convincin' me it’s important, but it’s just the same story
Always ringin' in my head when the morning's dawning
Wakin' up the dead like a morgue of zombies
All these debts I recall have caught me
Sittin' in the depths of my heart like coronary
All these friendly faces gеt scraped
'Til their invasive naturе awakes
And there the degradation awaits
Erase the perfect picture they paint
Don’t call me bitter
I’m just firsthand knowledgeable in the field
I’ve been through it all and I’m not fully healed
I’ve learned above all that I got to be real
Keepin' to myself, I never got the appeal
I was speakin' what I felt into the wrong people's ears
And that’s the moment where the metal hit the melting point
And turned to be soft and congealed

I keep tellin' you to save me
I’m not sure if you can
For the thoughts in my head, if you blame me
Then you can go talk to them then, ah

2022 hit me like a fuckin' ton of bricks, I lost my aunty Nic
2 dogs and a bird I grew up with, all are dead
And that happened all within' about one month
No time to process the loss of them, and then towards the end
I lost one of my longest friends, affected me more than I’ll admit
'Cause that prick threw away 6 years in an hour
Now, that’s what I call a bitch and a coward
Yeah I’m sour about it, I don’t give a shit if I sound it
The one friend I found that’d stuck by me
Through high school as everybody clowned and
When he dropped out in the 10th grade
Everything changed 'cause I quickly realized that I was now a-
Lone, then COVID hit and I lost all ability to go visit
I was protecting my family, I told you this
And then the texts got slower and the social rip
It got wider 'til we couldn’t sew it fixed
And what broke the stitch is when he took the friendship
Broke the shit, and then showed me that
Out of everything we did, zero meant shit

I keep tellin' you to save me
I’m not sure if you can
For the thoughts in my head, if you blame me
Then you can go talk to them then, ah

So what now? Now none but me
Better to guide me when I’m lost at sea
Who to be my beacon of artistry
To accommodate to my wants and needs, but me
Got my goal set straight on the center stage
In hopes one day I can maybe get a name
Big enough with enough weight
To play a sold out ticket stadium and
I can scream my cities name
With the clique that I came with
Just for puttin' my finger tip to the Staedtler grip
And then spittin' to the cadence
I been kicked to the pavement so many times
My face has a fuckin' imprint engraved in it
Name in it written at the base of it
Aged from the day that I let them get all advantageous

'Cause negativity's contagious
I’ve been infected way too many times
That pavement I'm gonna repave it
Take another shot at livin' a new life